I'm leaving New York. There are countless ways to say goodbye to the greatest city in the world and my limited elegance with words preclude me from writing something that matches my true feelings. I started this blog simply because I thought I could put up a few pictures and write some random words to go with it. What I got out of this blog was the love of my life and a son. You could say I got a great deal. Together we now set off for a place that isn't as tough to make it, and enjoy the family life with perhaps less stress.
After sixteen years and two college degrees later, New York City is more ready to spit me out than I am ready to leave. At first all I felt was bitterness because professionally it seemed like I hit the ceiling. As merely an ordinary man, making it in the priciest city in the United States is just too difficult. I wanted to be able to make it, to continue the beautiful story of our family here. But if there's one lesson that starting a family will teach you, or at least it has taught me, is that what used to bring happiness doesn't compare to just being at home.
I walk away happy, knowing what lies ahead for our family and for our future. The memories that this city and this blog brought to me are immeasurable. I wasn't able to turn this blog into a book deal or a writing job or a podcast. Instead it became a journal for all the times I hung out with friends and with my wife. This blog was a sanctuary of happiness and it had brought me more than I could have bargained.
"Searching for money, for love and for food, we strike bargains. We may be content with one for years until we begin to be shadowed by the suspicion that the terms aren't working out in our favor anymore." That was Pete Wells in a restaurant review. As I get older, I realize that money isn't everything. Searching in NYC, I found the love of my life, and together we have a child together. And the countless meals I've had in this city have all been worth it. But there's more than always trying to make it here, there's family.
Maybe we'll never get to live in New York City again, but I like the bargain that life has given me. I'm lucky and live a charmed life by all measures, and this experience has undoubtedly changed my life for the better. We look forward with hope and happiness.
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